One of the greatest privileges of being a parent is that God can and will use every moment and opportunity to reveal His heart toward us.

It is easy in the dark nights for us to doubt God’s ability and willingness to love us through our mistakes and failures.

When I look at the condition of your brother, O, I wasn’t upset at his diagnosis. Instead, my heart was broken for him. Knowing that there is a reality where he different from others and that he might struggle for rest of his life is hard to wrestle with. It wasn’t his choice. It’s simply the result of living in a broken world.

On the cross, Jesus prayed “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do.” We are sin-stricken. We are more helpless than we’d like to be. We fail. We make mistakes. And often times, we aren’t even aware of our short-comings.

Does Jesus look at His creation with anger? Does He feel disappointed? Does He disgusts at us? No! Instead, he looks at his creation with compassion — as sheep without a shepherd. He is broken for us. He weeps for us as we wept for O. He comforts us as we held and comforted O. He embraces us in our suffering.

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. (John 3:16-17)

When you wrestle with shame and self hatred, remember that there is a God who loves and did not come to condemn but to show you compassion. And so do we.